just me

2009-01-21T02:18:00.001-08:00

i've moved to http://www.chenshuyi.wordpress.com

2009-01-20T07:53:00.001-08:00

wont it be nice if there is this special person who play sth special for you~~~

like a song ... with guitar, piano or violin~~ haix..so nice (8 lol

what if there is no tmr? wat will you do? all of us tend to take today for granted. i can do this tmr i can have tt tmr i can leave it to tmr..tmr tmr tmr...wat if u lose tmr?how many tmr do we have? and when we lose our tmr, we regret of giving away tdy. this may sound confusing, but this is wat i'm thinking right now. fantasy ppl might think? it's not a simple qtn...wats ur ans?

-i dun mind losing my tmr coz i have tdy?

-i wan to be with my love ones...why not tdy?

-dun ask me...?

-do sth i do not dare to try at all..how abt tdy?

we leave so many things behind and yet we hope for new things. a simple thought like being with our loved ones seems so hard everyday. just go home a little earlier, or make the effort listen to ur parents' stories..not hard i guess. or listen to your child for a minute whereby u scolded her/him for years?

what if you really lose your tmr...

we are just frens (8

2009-01-19T05:57:00.000-08:00

i can control for a week, why not a year?

what about forever? maybe it will work and i'll forget abt it.

we are just frens (8

2009-01-17T23:08:00.001-08:00

lol spring cleaning is tiring!!! and meanwhile, how can i forget to camwhore yo~~~

2009-01-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

i do not noe who are you. seriously, wat are u thinking?

i experienced it b4 and this is happening again. lol. i'm not unhappy but just oh wells...

we are different tts y.

sometimes i really keep quiet for some reasons. so dun ask me why. are u really a fren?

2009-01-14T18:10:00.001-08:00

hello peeps!

guess wat? shuyi is now a mac user~~~ hahahaha

yes i bought my mac ytd and i was too busy to blog abt it. anw ytd was really busy. trasnfering files from lenovo pro to alvin is not done yet. OMG and ytd presentation was kinda ok.. at least i got 2 strong photos which are needed for final submission(8 lalala!

even tho i like mac, i still love my lenovo (8 it's kinda weird to use mac then use windows. lol coz they are like super different. and i was singing to des all along the way home after i got alvin. HAHAHAH.

i'm a bird

flying free and easy in the sky

i can skype all night

and i got my apple care for 99~~~

hahahahaha(((8

2009-01-13T05:50:00.000-08:00

i promise sixters to forget abt him. it's fading!!! yay (8 maybe becoz i'm too busy recently. anw it's a good news! hahaha went to pick seashells tdy for my family...so cold~~~ i wan tmr to come faster!!!!

2009-01-12T22:17:00.000-08:00

am i really a good photographer? i dun know...
ppl told me abt other ppl's work and i felt a sudden lost of confidence. i noe i shld not lose it so easily but it just went away... i love my shots. i make my fren happy abt it and i'm glad she loves the pics. then why am i feeling so not confident? everything will be fine! haix...anw~~~ tmr is the presentation and i duno what mathias will say. just pray hard i guess.
i'll not post up any photos because yar will do it. hahaha i mean susie.

many thanks to many ppl~

1.susie for being my model!!! thanks a lot! i still rmb the first thing my lect said was u have to find you own model and i'm like oh god...ok ask yar! and msg u like immediately. lol. saying is very urgent and all...everything is gg smoothly and hope tmr is too. i noe sometimes can be very tiring standing under the lights...hot and bright. then change clothes clean up make up then put up a new one. is tiring i noe. thanks a lot!!!! i'll send u all pics (8

2.nisha for accompanying me to band and then to studio for the shoot. sax is heavy! LOL (8 thanks a lot for coming down and make susie comfortable. thanks for helping me to think of some poses! hope to see ya soon ok nisha!!!!!!!

3.zhen for lending me your eye shadows! they are lovely! lol (8 thanks for all the encouraging sms everyday whenever i have shoot with susie! they really encourage me and make me put in extra effort! thanks a lot dear! tc in HK ok (8 dun miss us! i mean miss us as much as possible.hahahha

4.siti for all the morning sms to encourage me for the shoot(8 thanks a lot!!! and thanks for making the effort to come and support me even tho you could not make it in the end. i really appreciate it!!! school reopen, dun worry you will do very well (8 cya soon!!!!

5. desiree for lending me your eye shadow and trench coat. they really help me alot! dun worry..i did not use too much of ur eye shadow(8 LOL i noe they are ex so i'll be careful with it ok (8 tmr is the presentation..all the best!!!!

many other ppl who helped me in one way or another...thank you so much!!!! (8 all the best ppl!

2009-01-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

everything seems to be coincidentally happening on wed..this coming one.
first-fashion photography presentation
2nd-buying a macbook!!!!!
3rd-jeans coming, done with altering
4th-zhen flying off to hk!!! )8 dun miss us and tc!
5th-yar's 3 frens' bday...

how many more to come? anw~~~ i hope presentation will be sucessful, as well as buying my macbook (8 pray hard! hope mathias will like my photos and i dun need any reshoot! LOL (8

recently have been shooting, going to yar's house meeting sixters here and there! i kinda like these few days! ahhahaha like having hols still...doing things i like (8 shooting is fun esp when we got the shot and yar goes," i like! i like! i like! *jumping*" lol (8 the weather has been good to me as well! thank you so much!!! ok i shall update the pics soon!

2009-01-06T06:54:00.000-08:00

just the 2nd day and i'm kinda stress alrdy...
reason?
not enuff time! not enuff space!! not enuff cameras!!! omg~~~

fashion imaging can be fun and stressful! to get clothes, models, make up, props...etc...
oh wells~ i'm sure i can survive like how i survived the other time (8 add oil...8/ and things can be a little irritating like not able to find the clothes or wat..and with all the props prob.

ANW~~~ i'll survive!

2009-01-03T23:45:00.000-08:00

I'm too lazy to type in any words, but i love my pics (8

my sis and i

erjiejie

nice sky!

random pic

squatting again

MUDDY

jump high

((((8

love

6pm

zoommmm

big smile

huh?

moving on

snoopy sis

hello!

YAY!

old man

corridor

both of us

she

renovation...her pri school

nice?

abt the same

and we took again

my sis

high shot

beautiful landscape

park ur bicycles here

talking

our playground

i used to climb tt thing

love the sun

forest gump?

carpark

wat abt bnw?

edited

2009-01-02T22:46:00.000-08:00

i have not been blogging after i went shooting tt day.

ytd (friday) i went back to my old house -jiu jia- with er jie jie (8 we took many nice photos! will update soon after i edit them...i really love shooting!

school is starting in 2 days..maybe 1.5 days! idk y, i felt quite normal for me..i dun feel sian or watever. (8 i cant wait for new year!!! hahahaha!! ok i need to have my new year resolution!
watever they are, i will work hard, play hard and enjoy myself (8

I CANT BELIEVE I'M GOING TO BE 19!!! 2010 pls dun come so fast! hahahaha

2008-12-30T23:50:00.000-08:00

thanks for david chan! hahaha (8 shooting is fun! anw i wan to shoot sea related stuff like submarine or yachat? hahaha!!!

the contrast of the pics din really turn out well when i uploaded, but anw...i love them all

2008-12-28T23:36:00.001-08:00

suddenly, i have the urge to collect camera. it is a very expensive collection i noe, but i really love them all...

-polaroid
-dslr
-black birdfly

wats more? omg~~~
i wan a SLR-FM2!!!! hahahahaha (8
anyone can buy me tt? LOL

2008-12-27T01:45:00.000-08:00

clear blue sky
big white clouds
nice weather...

my dream is nice too but i woke up too early today, maybe too early for the dream. oh wells~

2008-12-26T09:21:00.000-08:00

blink blink blink

down there...
click

"hi"
"hello"
"wat u doin?"
"nth"
"byebye"
"byebye!"

the end...i'm bored~~~
hahaha...i know i can sleep but idk y i dun feel like sleeping..hmmm
oh wells

nites

2008-12-25T22:54:00.000-08:00

i'm so bored.

as usual, after christmas, ny will come soon after.
and i'll get one year older. nice! oh wells...

i felt super slack at home tdy...and i really dun feel like doing anything. i love this boredom! (8
anwwwwww...

are you really out there?
nth..

i've been thinking..
i wan a hse of my own with a darkroom, a studio, a sewing room, a travelling room, bedroom in the living room (8, a beautiful kitchen, a movie room, a gathering room, a mini bar corner...okok hahaha i noe it's kind of impossible.BUT i really wan a darkroom and a studio of my own (8 not forgetting a sewing machine will do! may my dream house come true(((8 hahaha!!!

2008-12-25T02:30:00.000-08:00

merry christmas!

today is a good day (8 i'm super happy today, for a couple of reasons. first of all i would say, i'm someone who gets happy easily! hahaha...

my ear piercing seems better a little bit!! even tho is like a little bit, i'm super happy! is a good starting for healing rite? hahaha.
2ndly, BBF is here in singapore, but not to my hse yet. i'm super happy!!!
3rdly, i helped my sis and i felt so happy...idk y, but i just do (8
4th, the weather is nice.
5th, i'm listening to my fav christmas song! 12 days of christmas!!!!!
6th, i'm getting a macbook in year 2009!!! WOOHOOOOOOOO
7th, i finished all the presents!!!
8th, i just felt happy~~~

I'M A HAPPY PERSON~~~~~~~ even tho my wish din come true. BUT NVM!!! i'm still extremely happpyyyy happy happiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeee (8

2008-12-24T03:42:00.000-08:00

i'm not a very storybook person. but...it catches my attention.

for one more day

i'll buy it one day...i wan to read it again and again. simply too wonderful (8

i love mitch albom
-for one more day
-the five people you meet in heaven
-tuesdays with morrie

i love them all (8 read them when u have the chance to!

2008-12-24T00:57:00.001-08:00

today is christmas.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!

may all your wishes come true when the clock hand strikes 12 tonight! (8

2008-12-23T07:39:00.000-08:00

we cannot always think that watever we want, we will get it. coz this world does not revolve around me only. for some reason, things are never fair. or i would say, fair in terms of karma? anw! we make wishes and have dreams...we have to work for our dreams and we can only pray for our wishes. if wishes are meant to come true, maybe it shows tt you are lucky. or would i say, the others are just a little evil, tts y they dun get the good hand. i've made a wish which i do not noe when will it come true, or never. unless i'm being told, if not, my wish will remain unfulfill. i do not pin too much hope on it tho (8

so what is your wish? for christmas...

tmr is christmas eve, will my wish come true when the hand strike 12 tmr? i doubt so (8

2008-12-22T07:29:00.001-08:00

just like that song u said...nothing more than feeling unhappy, but yet tempting to hear it more.
this is our song...a bad one but true.
i've changed the song to a happier one...but i do not feel any better.
this year christmas came a little too fast, way to fast for me to plan. in the end, i'll be staying at home, as usual, being happy with my family (8

nites!

2008-12-19T09:11:00.000-08:00

ok! i'm gg to post sth abt these 2 mths!

one word to describe : CRAZY!!!
this is totally messy crazy awesome tiring stressful funny irritating and many more!!! within 2 mths, so many things happen.

product and advertising photography.

product shoots? yea...with many more. we learnt to use the large format camera, medium format- hasselblad, mamiya.. this is amazing! it's like those camera u get to see only in tv showing vintage stuff or outside some camera shops. i love large format camera!! they rocks! all of us were so stress about the set up, finding props, no props! die!, i need the camera tdy, but i need too! die!, omg can u off the lights?can i on the lights? -_-''' so many problems here and there. but who cares! after all everything was so fun and exciting!!! u get the shot after u load the film..to fotohub, they exposed(she was exposed?) ur film..tts the bad part! oh wells...but i got tt thru (8we make food look piping hot using candle smoke...hahahaha!!! and trying to get our stuff printed for bg. it's simply amazing! if u never went thru all these, u will never understand all the joy and feeling we had.we db food, we play cup beat, we lip sing, we slide across the studio, we hold the board, we lit up candles, we burn paper, we fan out the smoke, we imitate happyslip, we visit ruby and photohub, we pull the polaroid, we stay late in school and came back on sat, we get locked in the studio, we went out buy props, we bring in barang barang then bring home...many more!

AMAZING

alt. photography tech.

can i dun tok much on this? hahahaha it's amazing but...i ruin the christmas presents for my frens )8 anw...i love black and white!!!! hahaha (8 i'm too lazy to blog abt this module after i said so much for the previous one 8X

Pudes!

omg...madness! i actually broke my record during tt module... i vector like mad for hours and is really crazy! ok i shall juswt show u guys the work (8

i wanted to post more...but colour seems weird. oh wells...all turn out blue..nvm

2008-12-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

this holiday, i'm staying at home most of the time, for a couple of reasons which i think no one will be interested to know. so i shall skip that. yesterday night, i thought for a while. i think about my life. reflections as usual. there are something which change my days, a lot. till now, there will always be this thing that choke me in my throat whenever i think about them. they seem to cast a shadow in me. this is going to be a long post...

i have this story to tell. this old man of mine left my world when i'm 13. my grandfather. he dotes me a lot a lot, i would say the most among my siblings and cousins, when he is still alive. he stays in my house since i was born. he sees me grow up, from starting to speak, to walk, to run, to eat porridge instead of milk, to my nursury days, to my kindergarten, to my primary school, to my sec one and i noe he is still watching me. so our relationship is very close.

i used to play in his room with my sister and at 3 pm when he came back from work, we will pack up and run out of his room, afraid that he will raise his voice at us for messy up his room when he needs a break. he was a big, tall and strong man. his squarish face and those grey straight hair make him look fierce sometimes. he always cooks porridge for me as we teochew, love to eat porridge. he will fry me one or two eggs as side dish. delicious. i teach him ABC when i'm free. both of us will sit in the living room laughing because the way he pronounces them are funny. days after days, he gets weaker. everytime we go to the mama shop downstairs, he will ask if i wan to eat "seng gor" which means ice cream in teochew. i said yes.

i made him fall once and i felt super guilty, because i wanted a cup noodle which is so high up on the shelves. i was too timid to ask the shop owner to help me get it and i ran back to seek for my ah gong's help instead. silly. he went down with me and he tripped.

soon when i start to grow up and he became weaker everyday, i find him irritating and annoying. he repeated his question almost every 5 mins asking if i have eaten. he often ask me to make calls to china, his hometown, and i did it unwillingly. i was bad to him in terms of attitude. i did not eat with him during dinner anymore. we did not laugh like we used to when we sit in the living room. i no longer see his smile neither did he see mine when i'm with him. i hope he could just leave me alone and stop bothering me. and he did.

before he passed away, he was so skinny that i totally could not recognize him. where is my strong and tall ah gong? he became bony and his body coiled in the bed like a baby.he no longer speak well. his hair was gone, leaving that skull beneath his skin. soon he passed away.

one day, my sis told me before my ah gong died, he asked her a question in teochew.
"does ah mei hate me?"

I'm sorry. i do not hate you. i do not.
guilty. ashamed. disappointed. till now that question circled in my head and i could no longer answer him myself.

my second story revolves ard my 2 very good frens, maybe 3. we were very close during secondary school, till sec 4. at that time, my temper is horrible. i have to admit that. i screamed at them whenever i'm pissed by little things. they have to give in. who can really tolerate such a friend? even if i said sorry fast after i vent my anger, what's the point? i slap u and i say sorry...its the same meaning. what is wrong with me?

soon, they all left me, alone. they start to drift away from me, talking behind my back, giving me nicknames, and this make me felt terrible. i became the subject of their conversation, sometimes.

i cried for nights. i blamed them for being so mean.. i blamed everyone who supported them, except myself.i refused to blame myself for being so bad and ridiculous to them. i'm sorry. i tried to change myself for the better after that.
i changed my temper, i swollow anything i can, to prevent such terrible thing to happen again. i kept quiet if possible. i let it go. i don't wan to be left alone again for the same reason. my bad temper.

thanks for giving the lesson, i deserve it. and now i'm glad i changed a little even tho i'll still raise my voice sometimes...i'll continue to change (8

i noe there will be more such happenings gg to come in my future. i'll get to learn more along the way. i hope i get to be a better person by then.

2008-12-16T23:23:00.001-08:00

i cleaned my table today!!! it became super neat with some messy things here and there...hahaha
every hols i'll spring clean my area and i felt really good after that.
next will be my wardrobe.. hahaha tts really a mess! (8

2008-12-15T22:41:00.000-08:00

laughter is the language of the world.

2008-12-14T08:00:00.000-08:00

i'm so tired...

i'm kinda excited abt tmr (8 i wan to submit tmr! wish me luck! hahaha i hope everything will go on well...i've made many things recently...andddddd i'm gg to make more!
i was sewing the whole day for my alt processing..super tired! tho the needle works sucks but i'm not gg to redo! 8X
i wan to have my hols asap!!!! hahaha 8D can u give me now?
ytd..nvm

i cant wait for piercing on tues!!! hahaha (8 all the best!

2008-12-13T10:45:00.000-08:00

different love songs give different mood. somehow the mood affects my emotions. but there is just one song..tt song...i love it but it's so hurtful to hear it. i close my eyes and i follow the lyrics. i hum with it and i sigh. all the time, without fail. but i understand and i'm glad (8

2010 yes!

2008-12-11T09:25:00.000-08:00

i wanted to sleepy early tonight coz i got a terrible headache. but i failed. i guess my sleeping cycle changed during these days. lol
i would not say submission is completely over for me. coz submission for alt. processing is like next friday. oh well....tts good in a way. (8 i wan stay over asap!!! LOL i wan christmas asap!!! i wan to go out with sixters asap!!! i wan to go timbre asap!!! omgggg...i love hols!

~so anw~ have been playing word challenge and hows big is ur brian in facebook. hahaha quite fun (8 ohh~~(me three) i watch flight with the living dead...not bad but i got the headache with me alrdy...so din really enjoy. 8/

gnites

2008-12-07T06:06:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

i'm finally blogging again...recently i'm super super super busy with PuDes. omg!
is like my record of the year! continuous vectoring in 4 days! 48hrs? ok maybe lesser. hahaha (8
i'm so happy abt the end results tho!

3hrs fish and chips
1hr canada
4hrs spagetti
4hrs paris
3.5hrs breakfast set
2hrs sydney
1.5hrs toast bread
3hrs great wall of china
1.5hrs dumplings

finally i completed it. james pls be nice and give me good grades! 8/
ok! alt. processes (8

2008-11-29T02:37:00.000-08:00

things have been going pretty ok(8

pud des can be tiring but at the same time...fun! haha :D

and i'm kinda caught up with wat to do for my alt processing. i guess i'm alrdy in hols mood? and geeting a macbook mood...hahahaha.

thanks!

to desiree for helping me feeling better and accompany me thru out the blk. you are one of the first few people i noe in tp during 1st day of school..haha (8 take care and stop having stomach flu! LOL (8

to david for helping me in so much so much...things like computer problems and stuff like that. really appreciate! (8 without you i wont know abt happy slip which make me feel better whenever i'm down. and the low voice..hahaha (8

to nat for the COOKIES and all the days in level 5 studio. it's over now but i'm still thinking abt every joke we made in the studio and all the scary situation when cheeyong suddenly appear..HAHA (8

to yar for consoling me when i'm down. most sixters are not in singapore but you are there for me when i'm down (8!!! hahaha we muz meet up more often coz i really miss u guys!!8/

to many ppl who said dun worry...dun be estress....dun be so uptight...everything will be fine!!!

thanks!

2008-11-27T23:43:00.001-08:00

is good to have friends(8

2008-11-27T17:32:00.000-08:00

recently things have not been good to me. i was still struggling feeling so irritated ytd abt things being unfair. but i guess this is going to continue and i cannot complain everyday. why not just accept my unlucky days. i tot that tdy will be better but i guess i'm wrong. it's just another disgusting day i'm gg to spend. oh wells. things are really not smooth and i wan to get out! i hate these days! no one will ever say...hmm ur days are so unlucky, why not let me make it better. NO ONE! coz everyone is selfish. idk. mayb i'm just feeling negatively. i really wan to cry out loud. but i think that is useless.

selfish.self-centered.inconsiderate.negative.not-understanding.selfish.selfish.selfish

anw...i'm not gg to lose! no camera then no camera! i shall make pinhole maybe? lol or photogram (8 mac on jan

2008-11-25T07:48:00.000-08:00

i do not know what happen

there is this suddenly feel of lost. is like the feeling is overflowing.. you might not know wat the hell i'm toking abt. but i'm like feeling fully lost. everyday i do not know my goal. but everyday i noe there is sth huge is coming towards me..and these are stressing me out. maybe after this blk ended, then i'll get to feel relaxed. since long ago, i have not really rest. oh wells.
i'm tired almost every sec and night. my brain cannot stop telling me that there is more work coming~~~ whereby i can try to enjoy these few days first. haix )8

www.shuyistired.com/stress/broke.html

2008-11-22T21:14:00.000-08:00

My last 3 shots. feel good

earrings

ring

necklace

2 out of 3..i reshoot them. not becuz they are not good, or they are blurred watsoever.

just becoz of the stupid act, i lost the 2 shots. i'm still feeling sad whenever i think abt it. i hate the girl...

anw, i've completed my 9 shots and i really hope i can score well. i really put in many many effort. pray hard!

2008-11-20T06:41:00.000-08:00

i noe i shld not compare coz i will never get back the same shot. but i just cant help it to put them tgt. i really love my previous shot which i lost it forever. tdy i reshoot my ring shot but the feel is totally different. the feel of my reshot is not right and i really hate it. coz i really love my previous one. it just sucks. this feeling is horrible but wat can i do abt it. i know i shld not dwell on it anymore. but is an effort wasted. i hate that girl. she ruin me. yes i'm not making this big but i really put pride in my work. i love perfection and this is never perfect for me. i tried so many times to console myself but i guess all i need is time. i dun wan understanding or trying to give praises just to make me feel happier. i wan honest comments which eventually make me feel worse. i noe my 1st pic is definitely better than my 2nd. I HATE FOTOHUB. YOU RUIN MY FEELING TO THE MAX. if only the girl read my blog and i will say this to her : YOU CANNOT BE RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE COZ YOU CAN NEVER HANDLE SUCH BIG FAILURE.

why must i face the consequence whereby it is not my fault. this is so unfair! fotohub i will rmb you forever as the worst photo shop ever. you dun deserve any single respect from anyone. i hate you! STUPID!

this is not just about anger and disappointment. it is also abt pride and the lost of sth i really love. you can never understand how i feel coz all you noe is to say sorry and your days go on normally. however, i have to face the bloody consequences and see more failure in my shots. if you have conscious, you shld not even continue working there. i noe i'm being mean but i dun care. is my work that is being destroyed, not yours.

i will always rmb the stupid day in fotohub that ruin my rest of the days.

2008-11-19T04:36:00.000-08:00

FOTOHUB IS A NOT PROFESSIONAL PLACE TO PROCESS YOUR FILM!

she is a disgusting piece of shit which exposed my film. my 2 days of hardwork and time has totaly gone to waste because she is such an idiot. she open up the box just to COUNT THE FILM, and i've alrdy told her inside there are 4 film. she is so dumb and went to open up. super not professional. she shld be trained first but from this case, fotohub do not train their employee. because of her stupid act. i wasted 10 polaroids and 48 hours of hardwork. plus, destroying my fren, desiree, film as well. she is super super stupid and she shld be trained. DO NOT GO TO FOTOHUB IF YOU WAN YOUR PROCESSING TO BE SUCCESSFUL!

I HATE HER!

Film shld be made idiot prove. dumb-ass!!!!!!!

2008-11-16T05:31:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling kinda moody recently..but somehow i din wan to show.
now, i'm kind of calm so i decided to blog. my last setup...i'm stuck! )8
many emotions came into my mind and heart. wat i wan is not wat i feel. i do not like this but my heart tells me this is the right way. i wan to feel this way but my mind remind me not to!

confused.

i take pride in my work and i have to be confident abt them. but my heart affects my mind. discouraged. i noe i shld not be but i just do. i hate it!

tdy is flea market...at east coast. tanned or would i say badly burnt. i hate it! i hate tanning~ yes i'm not the sporty shuyi i used to be. and i refused to get myself black again. the worse thing is, i sold nth. thanks

i'm tired...i wan to sleep )8

2008-11-14T08:42:00.000-08:00

three

two

one

what i have been busy on (8

2008-11-07T06:40:00.001-08:00

my first food photo

2nd

3rd

pray hard that tmr everything will be successful and i do not need to reshoot anything.

2008-11-03T18:56:00.000-08:00

i'm alone in the studio now...LOL (8
the feeling is quite cool~ doing some sketches and having cream of chicken soup. hahaha...
i like this feeling (8

2008-11-02T08:25:00.000-08:00

maybe i shld stop wasting my time on you. after all, you are not that good either. LOL (8 or i just dun understand you enuff. but i shld stop wasting my time now and i wan to shoot tmr~!!!! on film.

2008-11-01T10:16:00.000-07:00

to choose, i'll choose my education over relationship.
maybe after going thru so many things, i realised the keep on believing that someone is out there waiting for me, i might as well focus on wat i can work on. photography is really important to me and it really meant a lot. it is my dream. for now, dream vs love, of cuz dream win! LOL
anw...no one is there! HAHAHA~

i hope my shoot will be perfect and nice~!!!! wish hard(8

2008-10-31T09:19:00.000-07:00

my first test shot (by cheeyong tho) lol (8

2008-10-28T10:00:00.000-07:00

if white is blank and black is filled, which colour are you?
watever shape ur life is, it is filled with ppl. ppl ard you like strangers, friends, family etc.
my life, there is too many white ppl. sometimes i really wonder, when there are so many ppl i know but they remain white, empty. izzit because of me? some ppl are black and they remain black, while some are turning grey and then white. if i get to do a flash on this, maybe i see more fading colour, rather than filling up the black. i can no longer colour the grey, black. they are just not there anymore.

if my world has this pop out on top of ppl's head, what words will i see? too many truth and lies. too many acts and real.

which is the real you?

wat is the real me?

2008-10-27T10:07:00.000-07:00

we talked we laughed we shared we smiled we listened...but we never asked.

2008-10-26T10:25:00.001-07:00

steamboat on 25th oct! love it~!! lol (8
i wonder what are you thinking?
too lazy to upload the pics. happy deepavali to all tamil ppl (8 dun be racist k! anw...do enjoy coz we are getting hols too! lol (8 i'm kinda stuck with no ideas for my photography. haix...i'm kinda not happy coz of some reason. but watever it is, if i managed to let go and put down, everything will be good and wonderful (8 so let it down...

2008-10-24T08:01:00.000-07:00

my eye sight is deproving and i'm not very glad abt tt.
more carrots and more eye massaging!

tdy is bad...i hate tdy.
anw...not gg to elaborate anything abt tdy.

today is friday, i decided to rest for a while. i'm tired and i shall be work free tonight(8 and tmr...LOL! cheeyong is nice and the class tok abt funny topic tdy. cool~ but somehow my days got disturbed. Apple says ignore! and i says OK! (8

2008-10-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

I'M SO FREAKING TIRED! too tired to think of anything. i shall sketch tmr...my brain kinda died now. oh mannnnn

2008-10-18T22:59:00.000-07:00

school reopen
i heard tpds changed a little. oh well, i shall go see see (8

ppl do change and forget something, someone, some-when.
promises u made and all the fun. all the encouragement. after a while, ppl tend to forget. ppl who don;t provide u benefit gets forgotton easily? within a night, everything can change. first we are frens, then we are not. how fast can we change? i'm not complaining abt anything, but tt is wat i observe. maybe when we reached 70, 80 or 90, will you still rmb ur pri sch frens? or have u forgotten them once u get into sec sch? i'm glad abt keeping contact with yixin all along (8 . then i met yun zhen in tpjc and then dingjie and jasmine in poly lol. idk abt the rest. din really meet.

how abt recalling our pri sch teachers?
principal : mrs lim
p1 form teacher : mr chan (1L)
p2 : mdm faridah (2C)
p3 : mr ng (3D)
p4 : mrs yup (4A)
p5 and p6 : mr wee (5J/6J)
chinese teacher : yu lao shi (HCL)

not bad huh..lol~

2008-10-18T20:27:00.000-07:00

i've watched several movies recently like :
-the notebook
-mirror
-unrest
-meet dave
-wall-e
-sex and the city
-harold and kumar 2
-painted skin
-journey to the centre of the earth
-red cliff (halkway tho, coz it's too long!)
-钱不够用2
-老师嫁老大
-wanted
-mama mia
-kungfu panda
-get smart
-mummy III
-金田一

woohoo quite a lot ah..lol~~~ these few days are lazy and all i did was sitting in front of my laptop or the tv. did a little housework, have my meals and i continue spoiling my eye sight. BUT i will not let my eye sight deteriorate. alrite..wish me luck once sch reopen (8

2008-10-18T01:25:00.000-07:00

actually i do need to wear specs...but i refused.

now you know why i refused? lol

2008-10-17T22:28:00.000-07:00

what is happening now?
yes i wan to!!! but somehow everytime, the opportunity comes at a weird timing. roarrrr LOL

next time

i'm happy ytd for several reasons. and i'm glad abt it (8 since sch is starting soon, is good to have happy remaining days..so hope saturday and sunday will be equally happy or even happier (8

2008-10-16T07:23:00.000-07:00

i duno why, suddenly i have the urge to do better in 2.2
i must work harder and keep telling myself that 我是强的 lor~~~

ADD OILLLLLL

2008-10-16T03:39:00.000-07:00

hair cut (8

2008-10-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

timetable is out.

wat can i say? sometimes when u dun wish to have it, u'll get it. for eg, the lect. haix
NVM...it's alrdy fixed. accept it. once school reopen, i'll have my night class... is 12-3 6-9 lehhhhhhhhhhh is 6-9!!!!! omg...again-_-!

something i'm glad, i found ppl same as me...somepeople. thank god! hahahaha (8

2008-10-15T10:15:00.000-07:00

haix

i'm bored

very bored

to what extend?

10/10...yes full marks.

anw, for the first time, how i wish i get pampered by someone who loves me...for some reason, I'M JEALOUS! lol nothing romantic! hahaha...i will work hard and harder and earn mony! to support myself, my parents, my dog, and my needs+wants.

i have a list of things to buy. i shall refresh it here :
-macbook pro
-600GB hard disk
-Ipod (as much space as possible)
-speaker for ipod
-headphone
-chocolate fondae
-70-300mm lens
-600 polaroid films (how can they stop producing!!!)
-clothes
-shoes
-good results
-good health
-healthy family
-happy mood
-happy friends
-a boyfriend ( lol..i'm just joking! seriously joking (8 )
-a meaningful and successful "everyday"

goodnight*

2008-10-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

i'm going to cut my hair again (8

2008-10-13T23:58:00.000-07:00

yes! it's time for cleaning up! when everything is on the floor now (8

i moved everything down so i can wiped and dust my desk. however i forgot to take a pic b4 tt.

tadah~~~very messy and dusty...

SOOOO.....yes! mask LOL

very unglam but watever, i'm known for being unglam anw -_-

messy corner full of bags and boxes...

blah blah blah

my spoilt printer. not throwing away yet. tsk!

while cleaning up, i digged out some stuff which i had taken out of my notice longgggg ago.

these are photos thumbnails which i took during photography module. love them! 381 in total (8

my display shelf..ok not very nice and neat but mayb not tdy. i'm kinda tired after clearing my main desk. so next time 8X

this is actually after tidying. it's still looks a little messy, BUT is very clean to me alrdy (8 lol

usually i even worse! 8P

more tidy corner as compared to just now. all boxes under the table!!!! lol

ok this is the other side. not touching tdy as well...

nice? ok actually not really...LOL!!!

overall (8

~the end~

i felt so accomplished. gosh! lol...but i bet it will be messy again after school reopen (8

tts me! messy rocks!

have u tidy up ur area?

2008-10-13T21:38:00.001-07:00

i'm going to clean and tidy my desk and room tdy. i promised (8 don't read too much into words.

2008-10-13T04:34:00.000-07:00

i accidentally stepped on his foot and he bit me hard. we are even!

looks gross, but it's actually not that painful. i'm used to it anw.

2008-10-13T01:36:00.000-07:00

nonsense.

2008-10-12T08:39:00.001-07:00

i want to be a photographer.

2008-10-12T03:01:00.000-07:00

how i wish we can have a pic tgt in my last 2 polaroid films.

why dun they produce more polaroid 600 films 8( i really love polaroid...haix
i wan to capture the best moments, best memories and best of everything. but i only left with 2 films which are turining yellow... DAMN!

if you have 3 wishes, what would they be?
-everyone i know is super healthy and safe everyday.
-my career in the future will be interesting, meaningful and successful
-i have super powers which i can use it to feel what others are feeling. wont tt be cool? uus

2008-10-12T00:44:00.000-07:00

it's no longer the same. feelings.

2008-10-11T00:53:00.001-07:00

bored. when will you know and understand?

2008-10-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

i want to cry
i want to laugh
i want to be angry
i want to feel sth.....

i noe this sound kinda silly, but seriously! at this moment i feel nth. not bored.not sad.not disappointed. nth .
wat happen? school is going to reopen. ppl hate that. but mayb tt is wat i need. to make me feel stress, make me be forgetful.
i'm quite a forgetful person, but at some situation i rmb so clearly. damn!

nomore.gone.where?

2008-10-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

see! that's my birthday! (8

(April-10)

2008-10-09T08:55:00.000-07:00

people say night time is the moment when you are at ur most calm state. true?

seriously, after seeing so much, i became less "imaginative". lol (8
are we common or different?
you are so unclear. i dun understand you. always so "mysterious".
idk...
who are you?

make a wish. let it dream. to know you better.

2008-10-09T07:34:00.000-07:00

am i very hungry now or wat? i have this huge craving for botak jones!!! omg!!!
roarrrrr if only it's like down there..u noe below my house or sth like tt. )=
recently i have been going out and i keep spending..on food! lol.
i really wan botak jones now! hahaha... anw tmr gg out again. i hope i get to eat sth cheap and nice again (8

i love to daydream, so don't ask me to wake up. i'll never stop.

2008-10-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
(i actually prefer humorous and responsible ones too. LOL)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

true or not.. part of it. idk

2008-10-07T20:13:00.000-07:00

i'm seriously broke.

i really suck at saving money. roar~~~

going to christian's chalet later. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lol

I WAN MY SHOESSSS!!! seriously i saw this pair of shoes online. it's so nice!

SGD 26!!! include shipping~ woohoo!

not bad ya? i hope it dun get out of stock!!!

ok i'm bored... really bored.

ok tv time!

ciao (8

2008-10-07T02:07:00.000-07:00

first of all, this is my dog.
his name is charco. he is a little camera shy.
he spends most of his time looking at sceneries

or looking at the door.
he will wait for us outside the bedroom door

and he gets a little impatient sometimes.
when we come out, we will play tgt.
he is very smart when we are playing.
but in terms of usual things, maybe not.
he hates to bathe,
especially with a camera in front of him.
he is an ambitious dog
which tries to jump off the table many times.
in the end, he gives up.

he is a destroyer. and a very inconsiderate dog.

but he always makes us smile by acting cute.

ATTACK!

tho some are dark and not very well shot, i love them all. we have him for 5 yrs and still counting (8

2008-10-07T00:27:00.000-07:00

maybe i should be getting used to feeling happy for others only.

2008-10-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

kungfu panda is quite a long ago show. but i just watched tdy.
i really love the lines :

yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery and today is a gift. thats why it is called present.

hahaha! interesting.

2008-10-04T10:19:00.000-07:00

when you think you can win this time, and you are so confident about it, it often fails. i let this round be my decision. i tried to save the situation and played hard. but in the end, it's just a dead end, no more moves available. maybe it's telling me, when things are supposed to be given up, i shld not spend too much time on saving it. is not tt i din try, but it's just fated to reach the end b4 the games finishes. anytime in a game, i can easily click undo and everything will be back to normal. and if i do so, i cheated. do i even have the chance to cheat in life?

why not you tell me, shld i continue playing by restarting the game. or shld i click exist.

2008-10-02T07:35:00.000-07:00

izzit really that important?
maybe not.
am i irritating to you?
i had a bad stomachache tdy and ytd )8 what have i eaten?
more and more money spent. damn! haha!!
looking forward to nex fri (8 apple and ethel!!! woohoo let's shop yo~
so what if i am! tts me!
i'm still collecting buttons and boxes. so if u have nice buttons, please give me if u do not want them (8 thanks alot!
fine watever. bye bye for now!
got to design chainlessbrain trade mark and logo! add oil shuyi! hahaha...my dog is outside barking..maybe not, just making noises so i will go out and pplay with him. SO CUTEEEE~~
no more irritation from me ya.
i'm so tired tdy...haix. i want to go to taiwan! hope my family will bring me there this yr! SHOPPING. alrite...tts all.
i'm not someone u can make used of and kicked away after that.
bye!
i am very disappointed with you.
thanks! after so long. yucks!

2008-10-02T01:42:00.000-07:00

i do not know what my dog is doing right now...running here and there?
did the housework...relief(8
i'm bored at home...very bored. he escaped?
i never sew mollies....becoz i dun feel like doing tdy. haix...i'm not feeling so good. coz of my stomachache...and i feel bored.

bye.

2008-10-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

have you heard of a story saying when u reached the highest peak of the ferris wheel, make a wish, and it will come true (8 believe it or not...somehow it brings hope in ppl's life ya? haha

we are really very different. so many times i said i give up, i didn't. but i guess..this time is for real. i hate guesses when i know i can never get the answer. i hate the conversations. i hate the short answers.

ANW...tdy is fun and tiring...alverina,mb and i walked from dhoby ghaut all the way to singapore flyer..woohoo~!!!ate in popaye (did i spell correctly?) and met DOLA~~~ and her bf...hahaha! so long la...(8 so happy!
ok tts it

bye.

2008-09-30T04:24:00.000-07:00

Tire Swing

i took the polaroid down in my room

i'm pretty sure you have a new girlfriend

it's not as if i don't like you

it just makes me sad whenever i see it

'cause i like to be gone most of the time

and you like to be home most of the time

if i stay in one place i lose my mind

i'm a pretty impossible lady to be with

joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride

and i never met a toby that i didn't like

scotty liked all of the books that i recommended

even if he didn't i wouldn't be offended

i had a dream that had to drive to madison

to deliver a painting for some silly reason

i took a wrong turn and ended up in michigan

paul baribeau took me to the giant tire swing

gave me a push and he started singing

i sang along while i was swinging

the sound of our voices made us forget everything

that had ever hurt our feelings

joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride

and i never met a toby that i didn't like

scotty liked all of the books that i recommended

even if he didn't i wouldn't be offended

i wouldn't be offended

now i'm home for less than twenty-four hours

that's hardly time to take a shower

hug my family and take your picture off the wall

check my email write a song and make a few phone calls

before it's time to leave again

i've got one hand on the steering wheel one waving out the window

if i'm a spinster for the rest of my life

my arms will keep me warm on cold and lonely nights

joey never met a bike that he didn't wanna ride

and i never met a toby that i didn't like

scotty liked all of the books that i recommended

even if he didn't i wouldn't be offended

2008-09-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

to:

sixters
chainlessbrain
yixin
poly friends
band

thank you for everything.

i duno why i wanted to say it, but i just have the urge to do so (8
no matter what, praises, encouragement or criticism, i accepted it and thank you very much!
maybe we are very different but some how, we communicate and understand each other. we may not be as close but u past my life once at least, so i get to know you then. take care my friends.

2008-09-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

I FINALLY BOUGHT A VEST~!! and is so expensive..at least for me it is! hahaha but i'm happy! (8
went shopping with sister..... so fun we shld have more shopping tgt(8
i'm still looking for the shoes...so more money will be spent. damn~! i'm super broke..mainly on food my god! hahaha (8
at least i can skip buying a bag....my mother made me ONE BIG BAG~!!! she is so nice pls! i asked her to make another for me..i hope she has the time! and i'm going to learn from her! hahaha...tdy i'm a happy girl~~~

i need to cut my hair...it's getting longer and i can tie it alrdy=/
i like short hair...no need to comb it so often u see..haha! maybe b4 skool start?

alrite off to bathe! (8

2008-09-28T03:01:00.000-07:00

listen to the same song over and over again. feeling clear yet confused.
who are you? when where how why what?

you said you want it, then you dun wan it. then you are so enthu, and then not. so is this fun?
i dun get to be the player. but just a chess in the game.

i ate a chocolate.

2008-09-25T02:07:00.000-07:00

Tree Hugger

the flower said, "i wish i was a tree,"

the tree said, "i wish i could be

a different kind of tree,

the cat wished that it was a bee,

the turtle wished that it could fly

really high into the sky,

over rooftops and then dive

deep into the sea.

and in the sea there is a fish,

a fish that has a secret wish,

a wish to be a big cactus

with a pink flower on it.

and in the sea there is a fish,

a fish that has a secret wish,

a wish to be a big cactus

with a pink flower on it.

and the flower

would be its offering

of love to the desert.

and the desert,

so dry and lonely,

that the creatures all

appreciate the effort.

and the rattlesnake said,"i wish i had hands so

i could hug you like a man."

and then the cactus said,"don't you understand,

my skin is covered with sharp spikes

that'll stab you like a thousand knives.

a hug would be nice,

but hug my flower with your eyes."

the flower said, "i wish i was a tree,"

the tree said, "i wish i could be

a different kind of tree,

the cat wished that it was a bee,

the turtle wished that it could fly

really high into the sky,

over rooftops and then dive

deep into the sea.

and in the sea there is a fish,

a fish that has a secret wish,

a wish to be a big cactus

with a pink flower on it.

and in the sea there is a fish,

a fish that has a secret wish,

a wish to be a big cactus

with a pink flower on it.

and the flower

would be its offering

of love to the desert.

and the desert,

so dry and lonely,

that the creatures all

appreciate the effort.

2008-09-23T06:12:00.000-07:00

Have been busy with mollies the whole day. so tired but satisfied. today there is someone order from me. idk y but i'm super happy. she is the first one whom i did not inform abt my website and ordered! thanks yous verys muchs (8 thanks mama for helping me in sewing when i meet problems. thanks papa for giving moral support. thanks dajiejie for encouraging me and helping me to improve on my design. thanks erjiejie for buying my items! hahaha thanks bro and huangying for saying my items are nice. thank you everyone! thanks to all my frens who supported me and helping me to promote to ur frens (8

tdy's pictures!

my working area

my working partner

my partner again

ok again

colourful thread

messy "workplace"

molliesdesign will work hard and play hard too! (8

2008-09-23T03:06:00.000-07:00

http://molliesdesign.livejournal.com updated

2008-09-21T08:30:00.000-07:00

SIXTERS outing is always the best! hahaha

first is a surprise for zhen who is sad 8(
this is the first time shuyi lied so many times in her life within a day! hahaha...yar and shuyi went to meet first, at first with nisha and they all lied tgt. hahaha! nisha went to accompany zhen while shuyi and yar went to bugis to get a flower for zhen, DAISY! hahaha...they told her the reason for their late coming and she nv get angry! hahaha 8)

next they went to coffee bean coz shuyi is hungry! brownies and ICE BLENDED MOCHA~~~
mb joined us in coffeebean and they sat there for like 2 hrs, just chatting! hahahahaha....uus
and PHOTOS!!!!!!

mb nisha shuyi yar

shuyi taking pic, space for siti

mb acting tall

say cheese

eh dun take my pic

u take again, hmph

is really a long day...mb and nisha went hime first. so yar zhen and shuyi went back to tm for their dinner and oh! before tt, they went to far east. omg so tiring pls.. they took 518..a long ride from orchard all the way back to tamp. gosh! hahaha zhen forgot to tap her card! hahaha!!!

soon zhen gt tired and went home too...so left yar and shuyi surviving! went for dinner in long john and off they go....home! super tiring but very happy day 8)

SITI WILL JOIN SIXTERS FOR SHOPPING SOOOOOON~~~ good luck girl for promos 8)

2008-09-20T05:03:00.000-07:00

http://molliesdesign.livejournal.com

to get more details(=

2008-09-19T00:04:00.000-07:00

i do not wan to care coz i do not wan to.
so many things happen i really wan to do my own thing. things that make me feel relax. so leave me alone. no guilt no worries no burden...

what kind of person am i? mixed feelings. one side i believe i'm right while the other, tell me i'm bad. so now wat? can i just heck care? no coz i need to noe my mistake...izzit even a mistake. no work now coz of hols, but i felt more stressful. i do not have a focus. and i cannot keep myself busy.

just leave me alone...

2008-09-18T03:00:00.000-07:00

i'm so boreddddd. i know i'm supposed to create more mollies....but i've alrdy done my part....so i need to wait for my mother to mend some...haha! anw...the whole day i'm like sleeping. i woke up at 12.00pm then i went back to sleep at 2.30pm until 5.30pm! oh man~ hahaha i dun wan to gain weight during this hols lor. ooo...i just rmbed, i actually dreamt about my gpa....! i din see the marks tho. so i hope it will be improved...to 3.56? hahahahha dream on! but we shhld aim higher rite? hahaha! add oil la....but not contributing to the fats! not funny.
i realised, recently my post have been quite down...but! i'm perfectly fine and hyper and normal...ok maybe crazy. hahaha so ya (8

i enjoy my mother's cooking! and i'm going to learn from her one day! yeppers...

2008-09-17T06:51:00.000-07:00

i can easily tell others,"what's so big deal? come on! u wont die becoz of it!"
but somehow is hard to persuade myself to believe it. maybe is always easier to say than to do.

tdy is submission.
I DECLARE HOLIDAYS (BANKRUPTCY) ~~~ if u din watch the office, you wont understand.
i'm glad abt my grades! thanks keith. hahahaha...after submission, i'll create more mollies. add oil!

have been listening to tree hugger. quite cool. remind me of my sis and i trying to sing a song which we do not noe the lyrics.hahahahaha!!! i'm so boreddddddddd...

i can walk, but not run. so don't force me to fly.

2008-09-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

i'm kinda happy but there is this little weird feeling inside me which i cannot explain. school hols is here in less than 24 hrs. i am happy about it.
recently, everything is smooth and fine and good. izzit too smooth? or mayb i've finally realised sth else? idk...isn't it better in this way?
less anticipation and less hope=less disappointment.
tmr is submission! so hopefully everything will go smooth and steady. hand it in and hols is here~~~!!! hahaha!

start to create more mollies!

2008-09-14T00:19:00.000-07:00

my muscles are aching like nobody business!
I WILL NEVER PLAY HUMAN FOOSBALL AGAIN! omg~~~ damn pain!
this afternoon when i just woke up, i almost fainted! is damn pain )=
i couldn't even walk or sit or lie or squat properly. i cannot squat! hahaha...i hope tmr will feel better...haix

webdesign is fun but only when u noe how to do...esp flash! uus~
wed submission...add oil(=

2008-09-10T08:47:00.000-07:00

i'm tired...

i don't know why but i'm really tired. i need a break from everything. i don't feel like doing anything and everything. oh man...)=
nothing is very happy recently, or mayb i'm always happy until tdy. i'm just so tired~
haix...what's wrong?

i just feel like lying on bed and do nothing the whole day. can i?

2008-09-09T03:25:00.000-07:00

golly and alvin are sold and given away. kinda 不舍得.

my table is in a mess right now and i'm too lazy to arrange. haha.
ytd night i had a dream. a sweet one and a scary one. dreams usually dun come true. and if they do, they are the opposite. so i'm not so happy about my sweet dream.... 8/
i cant wait for hols so i can do mollies everyday!!!! omg~~~so exciting (:

too long in blogspot and i forget my LJ password. good game. now i'm banned to login to reduce logged in failure rate. *clap*

2008-09-08T09:35:00.000-07:00

everyday is busy with sth...
mayb this will keep me occupied and not think of anything.
i hate to guess and get it wrong. always happening~
maybe this time i shall not guess. i'm tired of that.

2008-09-06T11:03:00.000-07:00

i'm happy....

then i'm disappointed....

now i'm confused.

sth interesting to share which i think is true. quote from a tv show:
once a girl fall in love, is very hard for her to let it go.

agree?

2008-09-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

not troubled
not bothered
not irritated

because i think differently now, and i expect lesser from you...

is good or bad news? idk...but i'm glad that there are changes in me(8
move on yo~
mayb next time when i think back, everything will just be part of my memories and i'll just laugh about it. how silly am i, how childish are my thinking and many more. so why not let it be the most silly yr and most childish thinking at this moment. after all, i'll still laugh at myself, maybe 10 yrs down the road(=

2008-09-05T06:24:00.000-07:00

what are you thinking?

sometimes i really do not understand myself...seriously. my heart and brain, they dun work as one.

tdy pat told me," i do not have your prepress CD!" deng deng deng deng~~ are u kidding me? omg pls. but everything went well i hope after i send my FA to her(= pray hard! then i finally installed dreamweaver and flash! thanks to desiree and her fren(=

p.s. i'm going to learn to play guitar! wish me good luck (8

2008-09-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

thinking back, i'm still troubled about it.

mayb i've lost a fren, or mayb not. just back to stranger like last yr.

i saw these lines: to lose a fren is hard, but to lose yourself over a fren is harder.
and the worse thing is, my fren do not know anything! how silly am i!
mayb i shld get bothered by other things and not you.

courage, cherish, hopful.....disappointment.