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try taking a picture
maybe one day you will become a photographer
shuyi
april 10
vsc
you can always give me ice cream
or sunflower,maybe balloons
i have a dog and i name it charco
tk band
etc...
maybe one day you will become a photographer
the introudction
i have a name and my own story
shuyi
april 10
vsc
you can always give me ice cream
or sunflower,maybe balloons
i have a dog and i name it charco
tk band
etc...
try writing a letter to your friend
maybe one day you will become a writer
i duno...
disappointed is how i feel after that.
maybe i shld listen to my sister. at a moment...i'm quiet.
speechless is my say.
after all, this is just an extra thing.
i really duno why am i still feeling this way. i try to persuade myself for so many times and stop myself for so many times.....but i still come back to my original spot. why....
izzit really so hard to let go? at the beginning, there is not starting point...so where do i return to? my original spot is in my mind...
都没有开始,哪来的结束?
what so good about you? i dun understand...i just dun!
maybe it was a mistake to start toking to you.
i used to blog a lot of pictures abt my work....
but now somehow i realised, maybe i shld not do it. for some reasons, is better to keep things to myself.
tdy is apel...at first yes, i'm reluctant to go. because is a saturday. but somehow, after going, i learnt. idk, after watching the videos, i feel sth. i have a list of things i would like to have them. items are like macbook, dslr, hoodies etc. wat will the children in the poor countries write? food, shelter, clean water, medication? we are very fortunate. maybe tdy is too much information about everything ard the world. but somehow i feel that since we have taken time to go for apel, why not put in a little effort to appreciate what we are going to learn and energy to watch and listen? i cannot understand that much about thinking...most people's thinking. many things are happening in my head. i am not good at epressing myself because i know my language is weak. but i'm sure my attitude towards my life is not so bad. we need to take photos in 360 degree, and that implies to our attitude towards life. i believe we shld always see things in different perspective. maybe i got inspired by tdy's apel lesson because i put in that little effort to think and understand what i've seen tdy.
maybe i really do not understand. maybe i'm still too young to explain. maybe we should see things from the other angle.
there was once i ask changling, why don't you say her back since she is like doing it and dun even bother about how you feel? she replied," if i do so, what's the difference btw me and her?" i forget who's the person was but i noe that this line will always be with me.
think in another point of view, look at a different angle, put yourself in others' shoes, reflect about yourself and lastly, forget about it. is tough i noe but u'll gain more after letting it go and say,"nahhh it's ok" . not everyone can do it coz not everyone try to do it. to forgive and forget. are you trying now?
this is madness~~~
6 hrs of apel...can you believe it? moral lesson huh? i feel so nnnuuuaaaaa...
omg tdy is exciting. haha found many online shops! SPREEEEEEEEEE....maybe not.
save money!
do come and support chainlessbrain ya!
on a lighter note, i'm still looking forward to those days (=
do you?
never turn back...
for some reasons, i love to turn back and hope for sth. but maybe i shld not do tt too often(=
surprises is wat i need right now...i good one. i noe i have been requesting surprises to pop up. but i always get none. so maybe i just get to wish for and not get granted.
some people on the same ground are very fortunate and blessed. but they dunno how to appreciate. i am fortunate. yes i am! so i'll learn to cherish and love it. how often do you say thank you to ur parents when they buy you sth? and how often do you complain when ur parents do not do sth the way you want it to be? we rant about nagging and scolding...but at least they are healthy. mayb one day, and the day will come we all noe that, we are going to be independent. maybe regret is not a good word to know by then. how often do you stay at home when you are free, to accompany ur parents or wait for them to return home so you get to see them? idk for others, but for me, seeing them is sth i appreciate a lot. i dun go home very late so to avoid their questioning or wake up very late because i did not sleep last night. afternoon i go to school while they go to work. how much time can we really sit down and talk? so seeing them shld be sth happy (=
family is a group of people who will always be with us.
alrite alrite alrite
enough of online shopping(=
non-stop yo~ addicted...anw tdy is a nice sunday! drizzling, wonderful!
letter writing with yixin is fun and i really wan to keep it going (= do you write to your frens now? try it! it's fun and interesting...esp the waiting..is very exciting! hahaha..rite yixin?
start doodling~~~
ytd was a reflection day for me...
everytime after reflection, i feel more relieve and clear in my thinking. maybe for sometimes, we have to step back and look at a situation in a 3rd person point of view. to prevent any misunderstanding, is better to think free and let opportunity run past. because we are in a situation where we tot that you are the main role, everything seems to be revolving ard you only. maybe is just the right time to be a 3rd person and find all chances are false and unnecessary. there are many guesses in life, as well as coincidence. thus, not all guesses are right and not all coincidence are fated. think free. there are so many possibilities and usually only one is in favour of you. when u do so, you will often find urself circling in ur own game, ur own world. put it down and you can breathe in better air...
when one is down, somehow there is no one to share.
everthing is finally over...really very happy about it. however, i realised i made a mistake..haha but watever~ i cut and bled ytd for my prepress...i noe i did my best! during these few days, work is my priority and nothing seems to be bothering me. i love that moment. but now...i'm free again. will everything come back to haunt me? yes i use the word haunt...
i tear down the schedule in front of me. relieved(=
tmr going out with apple and all...excited! fireworks yo~~~ hahaha and brownies!
how i wish hols are here alrdy..haix=/
i'm tired
rusty stamina.
i don't know why for a reason i would like to spell out every single word instead of using short forms. everytime when i have tons of thinking and feeling to write it down, some how i could not do it here. i choose to pen down in ink. just like now, i have to think for a second about what am i going to type. i add in "hahaha" to make my post longer...neccessary? from the past till now, i learnt something precious. maybe not only one but many more. i have several hobbies i realised and i'm not focus. i love photography, i love designing t-shirt, i love sewing, i love drawing cartoons...etc. i go with my feelings. i listen to acoustic music now which make me feel so relax. i know for some reason i'm toking nonsense with no link to every sentence. but i love the way i am. so don't try to change me for what you think is good, cool or whatever. charco is outside waiting for us to go out and play with him. growling and making many dog noise. interesting. i love my dog even though he loves to bite people. he knows how to differentiate good and bad people. beware! i'm off...
i like this face!
it's way too long for me to realise that i have spent too much time on you.
is totally nonsense.
yearish.
alrite, so i shld not be indecisive and flicker minded.
welcome back~~~
p.s my blog timing and dates are all wrong...hahaha
bored..... as usual
i love to do work becoz it will keep my mind focus. if not i'll be having many imagination~~
who will u give to?
i cant believe it! or mayb it is just a popular choice. alrite....
have been watching the olympic...nice! now is volleyball...china vs china -_-''' hahaha
who win? CHINA! hahahahaha...wat are u doin?
ok tdy is a great day! simply marvellous(=
first...i saw a good-looking guy in my school lift! omg~~~ HAHAHAHAHA..sort of make my day happy
next...i got a good grade for my prepress! finally i see hope...ahaha i hope i can improve more.
lastly... i......shall not say it! hahahaha bu neng shuo de mi mi. watever~
tdy is a rainy day which oso make me happy. tmr no school...happy! work sort of completed..happy! i'm just being happy (=
i hope tmr will be as good as tdy! add oil~~
happy me!
big thank you to pat and jil for approving my work~~~ today is great! long skirt, sleeveless long top rocks! hahahaha....tmr gg shooting with evy! YAY~~~ hahahaha...happy me!
i'm bored!
i have many things to complete but somehow i'm still bored...hahahahaha
I HAVE NOTHING TO DO NOW!!!!! if only someone can give me a happy surprise! hahaha mayb say ur hair is nice! or you are the best fren i ever had...hahahaha jkjk!
or tmr someone pop out and give me a sunflower~~~
i'm so bored...are you?
sort of finish my pixco....6am! my record(= hahahaha love it!
i hope tmr will be smooth and nice and successful and exciting and happy and many many more!
pat and jil are nice ppl so please accept my work, approve them and love them~~~ hahahaha!!!
when ppl are sleeping and dreaming...
i'm awake doing my pixco...wat a wonderful night! -_-'''
backache! but i'm enjoying my work which is not a bad thing. take a break from my work and blog a while... i'm so hungry! hahahaha...alrite 4 am! way to go...going to do my work till my mother wakes up =/ the last time i slept so EARLY is like ideation.. hahaha i rmb i slept at 4.30am. cool huh?
and now....pixco! roarrrr! i really hope my hardwork can pay off. JIL PLEASE BE NICE AND LOVES MY WORK!!! hahahaha...wat are you doing now? hmm...4.03 am! hahahaha alrite back to work (=
what will you be doing at the age of 18?
eat ice cream find new frens play with my dog stay at home movies have my own stall in flea market do some designs go to school see weird faces watch the office download songs going for birthday parties camps find a crush joke with frens going back to band housework sewing shopping dreaming rushing for deadlines observing my family and it goes on....
what about yours?
we are different, very different. are you happy? good if you are (=
saw angel's post about her grandpa...
somehow it reminds me of mine.
if u ask me now, yes i regretted...alot. we used to sit tgt and tok about my day, never his. i will teach him ABC and force him to follow wat i say, acting like a small english teacher. he will laugh and try his best to catch up with my teaching. there was once i did not noe how to express myself in teochew, our only common language, i did actions and hope he will understand me. but he never did. he got worried about me whenever i went home myself and not waited for him to take me home. he always reached home at 3pm when my sister and i will run out of his room after our games session. he cooked porridge for me and i insisted him to fry me an egg. i still grumble. i cause him to fall over a step due to my silly-ness. guilty. he often asked me, "do you want to buy ice cream?" YES! excited.
as he got older and i grew up. i began to find him troublesome. he fell sick but i duno. he asked me,:have you eaten?" after every 5 mins. yes! annoyed. he asked me to make a call to china, his hometown. such a simple task, i complain and did it unwillingly. he felt my irritation towards him and asked my sister," does she hate me?"
he passed away in 2003.
i do not hate you. regretted.
if only i understand his illness earlier and cherish our times. i'm sorry. i love you. for all ur care and concern, ur patient towards me. you tolerate my unreasonable attitude. the one u spoilt the most. i dun hate you.
to the extreme and it stops
it's raining again. same to myself. again.
i love rainy days coz they smell nice and they feel relax. but i dun like this feeling now. tired but not relax. i've made a necklace. i shall keep it for myself.
outside the window are green patches. inside my mind is blank. this is unusual. my mind seldom goes blank. i guess i got the msg clear enuff. and i shall stop here :/
cold with the wind
wat makes you think so?
my hair is standing now for no reason....idk y!
am i feeling cold? mayb...
i noe i noe i noe i noe i noe!!!!
i saw fireworks on tv..national day. i love it! do you? fireworks is always beautiful...but i watched with my father and dog...ok...watever~~~
wat is that in between thing? why do i have 5 cards and not perfect 4? tt 5 cards are bad and i really feel that they reflected accurately. but i just cant find tt middle card! go away! haix... do u believe?
ytd was uh uh pls...hahaha
first is ice cream-ed with apple..我们是幸福的小孩~!!!
topless 5 with caramel topping shiok or wat? hahaha if only we have money for earthquake! omg!!!!! SHIOK~~~
then went to serene's bday chalet. HAPPY BDAY SERENE!
haha next up! STEAMBOAT with apple jacen and weixiang~ best ever!!!
tho we refused to leave the place and make the staff waited for us, hahaha, everything was awesome please! uus~~~
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!! hahaha...
all erased after i found out
all forgotten after i woke up
all thrown away after i stepped out
all disappeared after i saw them
all gone after i wrote this
bye...
hmmm izzit you that she refers to?
idk...i just got this feeling~~ woooooohoooooo
if is really you...shld i feel happy? hahaha idk! watever~ i screamed ytd in msn to alverina! shiok! i got it out finally~~~ alverina muz be thinking that i'm mad...hahaha but tt is who i am! scream as in not scoldings ya (=
if only i can say it out loud one day! not in msn but out loud u noe.hahahaha
waiting to go to school for pixco...bored-_-
*dancing ard* i just felt happy! even tho it is not confirm! but i feel like bursting into excitment! hahaha...lalala~~~
mayb i shld not be too happy...coz no one noe how u feel...=/ watever! i dun care~~~8P
p.s. benji got freak out so easily! hahahahahahahahaha :X
submission for yog fdc and stamps are over! shiok~~~
i'm glad that this submission is over...haha!!! next up-pixco and aisa booklet! woohoo...
add oil shuyi(=
actually i prefer ppl calling me shuyi....but ppl prefer to call me sock
oh wells~~~
my hands hurt~~~~!!!!!!!!!! damn!
red marks...small red marks....
lalala i'm being bored here! i wan to scream out loud...scream out my feelings and stress!
not much stress but watever!
i wan to have my own studio! my own lights, background, etc.
then i can make my own photoshoot.
a room painted all white and a big mirror near the door. with one big wooden table for sketches and laptop and nice comfortable leather chair, black/white. i wan a huge blackboard so i can doodle watever i like..a noticeboard coz i love to stick notes. a big television no windows wooden floor nice lightings beautiful music. a do-not-disturb tag outside my door...
next room is a cafe. i brew my own coffee bake my own brownies. a few small tables with couch for ppl. cafe in the morning and a bar at night. different types of alcohol with shots cup..watever u call tt. perfect! oh and a big tv for movies (=
another room...mattress on the floor...not one..mayb the whole floor... i roll on them and i toss and turn. a small machines that produce many many many m&m-s. a tv again! mayb a hot water boiler...for cup noodles. transparent ceilings for stars...nice! mayb rainbow too...
last room...all my family and frens. tts all i need to say (= and many dogs tt dun poo or pee!
something more to share...
finally completed my yog fdc. but still there are some problems here and there. anw, i haven been writing in LJ and when i read all my frens' posts...oh gosh i missed out quite a lot! hahaha~~~
nisha is 18 now so does peeaxe(=
this morning sth bad happen to me.
i got bitten by charco)= on my hands....
i dun blame him becoz is my fault to touch him when he is sleeping. my hands still hurts but better.
if someone was to ask me, how often do u regret after making a decision?
i will say plenty!
all of us make mistakes and now i realised i just made one.
to talk to think to miss
although i noe is a mistake but i still continue. hahaha
mayb i'm someone who follow my heart most of the time. good or bad?
i'm trying real hard to walk out and ya i noe i'll be fine and good again(=
who noes wat will happen 10 yrs down the road!
my hair is real short but i'm not BUNG~~~~~ roarrrrrr
is nice in my point of view..hahahaha but i guess tt is the shortest i'll ever cut(=
izzen tt bad maaaaaaa...
maybe one day you will become a writer
Sunday, August 31, 2008 ( 7:15 AM )
i duno...
disappointed is how i feel after that.
maybe i shld listen to my sister. at a moment...i'm quiet.
speechless is my say.
after all, this is just an extra thing.
Saturday, August 30, 2008 ( 10:07 PM )
i love it
( 8:22 AM )
i really duno why am i still feeling this way. i try to persuade myself for so many times and stop myself for so many times.....but i still come back to my original spot. why....
izzit really so hard to let go? at the beginning, there is not starting point...so where do i return to? my original spot is in my mind...
都没有开始,哪来的结束?
what so good about you? i dun understand...i just dun!
maybe it was a mistake to start toking to you.
( 12:16 AM )
i used to blog a lot of pictures abt my work....
but now somehow i realised, maybe i shld not do it. for some reasons, is better to keep things to myself.
tdy is apel...at first yes, i'm reluctant to go. because is a saturday. but somehow, after going, i learnt. idk, after watching the videos, i feel sth. i have a list of things i would like to have them. items are like macbook, dslr, hoodies etc. wat will the children in the poor countries write? food, shelter, clean water, medication? we are very fortunate. maybe tdy is too much information about everything ard the world. but somehow i feel that since we have taken time to go for apel, why not put in a little effort to appreciate what we are going to learn and energy to watch and listen? i cannot understand that much about thinking...most people's thinking. many things are happening in my head. i am not good at epressing myself because i know my language is weak. but i'm sure my attitude towards my life is not so bad. we need to take photos in 360 degree, and that implies to our attitude towards life. i believe we shld always see things in different perspective. maybe i got inspired by tdy's apel lesson because i put in that little effort to think and understand what i've seen tdy.
Thursday, August 28, 2008 ( 4:38 AM )
maybe i really do not understand. maybe i'm still too young to explain. maybe we should see things from the other angle.
there was once i ask changling, why don't you say her back since she is like doing it and dun even bother about how you feel? she replied," if i do so, what's the difference btw me and her?" i forget who's the person was but i noe that this line will always be with me.
think in another point of view, look at a different angle, put yourself in others' shoes, reflect about yourself and lastly, forget about it. is tough i noe but u'll gain more after letting it go and say,"nahhh it's ok" . not everyone can do it coz not everyone try to do it. to forgive and forget. are you trying now?
Wednesday, August 27, 2008 ( 6:50 AM )
this is madness~~~
6 hrs of apel...can you believe it? moral lesson huh? i feel so nnnuuuaaaaa...
omg tdy is exciting. haha found many online shops! SPREEEEEEEEEE....maybe not.
save money!
do come and support chainlessbrain ya!
on a lighter note, i'm still looking forward to those days (=
Tuesday, August 26, 2008 ( 3:24 AM )
do you?
Monday, August 25, 2008 ( 2:18 AM )
never turn back...
for some reasons, i love to turn back and hope for sth. but maybe i shld not do tt too often(=
surprises is wat i need right now...i good one. i noe i have been requesting surprises to pop up. but i always get none. so maybe i just get to wish for and not get granted.
some people on the same ground are very fortunate and blessed. but they dunno how to appreciate. i am fortunate. yes i am! so i'll learn to cherish and love it. how often do you say thank you to ur parents when they buy you sth? and how often do you complain when ur parents do not do sth the way you want it to be? we rant about nagging and scolding...but at least they are healthy. mayb one day, and the day will come we all noe that, we are going to be independent. maybe regret is not a good word to know by then. how often do you stay at home when you are free, to accompany ur parents or wait for them to return home so you get to see them? idk for others, but for me, seeing them is sth i appreciate a lot. i dun go home very late so to avoid their questioning or wake up very late because i did not sleep last night. afternoon i go to school while they go to work. how much time can we really sit down and talk? so seeing them shld be sth happy (=
family is a group of people who will always be with us.
Sunday, August 24, 2008 ( 1:33 AM )
alrite alrite alrite
enough of online shopping(=
non-stop yo~ addicted...anw tdy is a nice sunday! drizzling, wonderful!
letter writing with yixin is fun and i really wan to keep it going (= do you write to your frens now? try it! it's fun and interesting...esp the waiting..is very exciting! hahaha..rite yixin?
start doodling~~~
Friday, August 22, 2008 ( 11:55 PM )
ytd was a reflection day for me...
everytime after reflection, i feel more relieve and clear in my thinking. maybe for sometimes, we have to step back and look at a situation in a 3rd person point of view. to prevent any misunderstanding, is better to think free and let opportunity run past. because we are in a situation where we tot that you are the main role, everything seems to be revolving ard you only. maybe is just the right time to be a 3rd person and find all chances are false and unnecessary. there are many guesses in life, as well as coincidence. thus, not all guesses are right and not all coincidence are fated. think free. there are so many possibilities and usually only one is in favour of you. when u do so, you will often find urself circling in ur own game, ur own world. put it down and you can breathe in better air...
( 10:39 AM )
when one is down, somehow there is no one to share.
( 5:58 AM )
everthing is finally over...really very happy about it. however, i realised i made a mistake..haha but watever~ i cut and bled ytd for my prepress...i noe i did my best! during these few days, work is my priority and nothing seems to be bothering me. i love that moment. but now...i'm free again. will everything come back to haunt me? yes i use the word haunt...
i tear down the schedule in front of me. relieved(=
tmr going out with apple and all...excited! fireworks yo~~~ hahaha and brownies!
how i wish hols are here alrdy..haix=/
i'm tired
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 ( 3:29 AM )
rusty stamina.
i rmb last time i used to run 12.50 mins for my 2.4km nafa. to me tt is good alrdy. but now...
i went jogging and i realised my stamina had dropped tremendously. i bet i will take 1348932859740 mins for my 2.4km run. i am so tired now. omg...dying!
am i that bad? haha...tdy weather is great so i decided to jog a little....and now i feel so dizzy.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 ( 9:59 PM )
i don't know why for a reason i would like to spell out every single word instead of using short forms. everytime when i have tons of thinking and feeling to write it down, some how i could not do it here. i choose to pen down in ink. just like now, i have to think for a second about what am i going to type. i add in "hahaha" to make my post longer...neccessary? from the past till now, i learnt something precious. maybe not only one but many more. i have several hobbies i realised and i'm not focus. i love photography, i love designing t-shirt, i love sewing, i love drawing cartoons...etc. i go with my feelings. i listen to acoustic music now which make me feel so relax. i know for some reason i'm toking nonsense with no link to every sentence. but i love the way i am. so don't try to change me for what you think is good, cool or whatever. charco is outside waiting for us to go out and play with him. growling and making many dog noise. interesting. i love my dog even though he loves to bite people. he knows how to differentiate good and bad people. beware! i'm off...
( 11:01 AM )
i like this face!
( 10:15 AM )
it's way too long for me to realise that i have spent too much time on you.
is totally nonsense.
yearish.
alrite, so i shld not be indecisive and flicker minded.
welcome back~~~
p.s my blog timing and dates are all wrong...hahaha
( 2:05 AM )
bored..... as usual
i love to do work becoz it will keep my mind focus. if not i'll be having many imagination~~
who will u give to?
i cant believe it! or mayb it is just a popular choice. alrite....
have been watching the olympic...nice! now is volleyball...china vs china -_-''' hahaha
who win? CHINA! hahahahaha...wat are u doin?
Monday, August 18, 2008 ( 6:11 AM )
ok tdy is a great day! simply marvellous(=
first...i saw a good-looking guy in my school lift! omg~~~ HAHAHAHAHA..sort of make my day happy
next...i got a good grade for my prepress! finally i see hope...ahaha i hope i can improve more.
lastly... i......shall not say it! hahahaha bu neng shuo de mi mi. watever~
tdy is a rainy day which oso make me happy. tmr no school...happy! work sort of completed..happy! i'm just being happy (=
i hope tmr will be as good as tdy! add oil~~
Thursday, August 14, 2008 ( 7:20 AM )
happy me!
big thank you to pat and jil for approving my work~~~ today is great! long skirt, sleeveless long top rocks! hahahaha....tmr gg shooting with evy! YAY~~~ hahahaha...happy me!
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 ( 7:54 AM )
i'm bored!
i have many things to complete but somehow i'm still bored...hahahahaha
I HAVE NOTHING TO DO NOW!!!!! if only someone can give me a happy surprise! hahaha mayb say ur hair is nice! or you are the best fren i ever had...hahahaha jkjk!
or tmr someone pop out and give me a sunflower~~~
i'm so bored...are you?
sort of finish my pixco....6am! my record(= hahahaha love it!
i hope tmr will be smooth and nice and successful and exciting and happy and many many more!
pat and jil are nice ppl so please accept my work, approve them and love them~~~ hahahaha!!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2008 ( 1:00 PM )
when ppl are sleeping and dreaming...
i'm awake doing my pixco...wat a wonderful night! -_-'''
backache! but i'm enjoying my work which is not a bad thing. take a break from my work and blog a while... i'm so hungry! hahahaha...alrite 4 am! way to go...going to do my work till my mother wakes up =/ the last time i slept so EARLY is like ideation.. hahaha i rmb i slept at 4.30am. cool huh?
and now....pixco! roarrrr! i really hope my hardwork can pay off. JIL PLEASE BE NICE AND LOVES MY WORK!!! hahahaha...wat are you doing now? hmm...4.03 am! hahahaha alrite back to work (=
( 1:26 AM )
what will you be doing at the age of 18?
eat ice cream find new frens play with my dog stay at home movies have my own stall in flea market do some designs go to school see weird faces watch the office download songs going for birthday parties camps find a crush joke with frens going back to band housework sewing shopping dreaming rushing for deadlines observing my family and it goes on....
what about yours?
we are different, very different. are you happy? good if you are (=
Monday, August 11, 2008 ( 4:45 AM )
saw angel's post about her grandpa...
somehow it reminds me of mine.
if u ask me now, yes i regretted...alot. we used to sit tgt and tok about my day, never his. i will teach him ABC and force him to follow wat i say, acting like a small english teacher. he will laugh and try his best to catch up with my teaching. there was once i did not noe how to express myself in teochew, our only common language, i did actions and hope he will understand me. but he never did. he got worried about me whenever i went home myself and not waited for him to take me home. he always reached home at 3pm when my sister and i will run out of his room after our games session. he cooked porridge for me and i insisted him to fry me an egg. i still grumble. i cause him to fall over a step due to my silly-ness. guilty. he often asked me, "do you want to buy ice cream?" YES! excited.
as he got older and i grew up. i began to find him troublesome. he fell sick but i duno. he asked me,:have you eaten?" after every 5 mins. yes! annoyed. he asked me to make a call to china, his hometown. such a simple task, i complain and did it unwillingly. he felt my irritation towards him and asked my sister," does she hate me?"
he passed away in 2003.
i do not hate you. regretted.
if only i understand his illness earlier and cherish our times. i'm sorry. i love you. for all ur care and concern, ur patient towards me. you tolerate my unreasonable attitude. the one u spoilt the most. i dun hate you.
Sunday, August 10, 2008 ( 5:35 AM )
to the extreme and it stops
Saturday, August 9, 2008 ( 10:32 PM )
it's raining again. same to myself. again.
i love rainy days coz they smell nice and they feel relax. but i dun like this feeling now. tired but not relax. i've made a necklace. i shall keep it for myself.
outside the window are green patches. inside my mind is blank. this is unusual. my mind seldom goes blank. i guess i got the msg clear enuff. and i shall stop here :/
cold with the wind
( 7:32 AM )
wat makes you think so?
my hair is standing now for no reason....idk y!
am i feeling cold? mayb...
i noe i noe i noe i noe i noe!!!!
i saw fireworks on tv..national day. i love it! do you? fireworks is always beautiful...but i watched with my father and dog...ok...watever~~~
wat is that in between thing? why do i have 5 cards and not perfect 4? tt 5 cards are bad and i really feel that they reflected accurately. but i just cant find tt middle card! go away! haix... do u believe?
( 5:59 AM )
( 1:02 AM )
ytd was uh uh pls...hahaha
first is ice cream-ed with apple..我们是幸福的小孩~!!!
topless 5 with caramel topping shiok or wat? hahaha if only we have money for earthquake! omg!!!!! SHIOK~~~
then went to serene's bday chalet. HAPPY BDAY SERENE!
haha next up! STEAMBOAT with apple jacen and weixiang~ best ever!!!
tho we refused to leave the place and make the staff waited for us, hahaha, everything was awesome please! uus~~~
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!! hahaha...
Thursday, August 7, 2008 ( 4:08 AM )
all erased after i found out
all forgotten after i woke up
all thrown away after i stepped out
all disappeared after i saw them
all gone after i wrote this
bye...
Tuesday, August 5, 2008 ( 9:20 PM )
hmmm izzit you that she refers to?
idk...i just got this feeling~~ woooooohoooooo
if is really you...shld i feel happy? hahaha idk! watever~ i screamed ytd in msn to alverina! shiok! i got it out finally~~~ alverina muz be thinking that i'm mad...hahaha but tt is who i am! scream as in not scoldings ya (=
if only i can say it out loud one day! not in msn but out loud u noe.hahahaha
waiting to go to school for pixco...bored-_-
*dancing ard* i just felt happy! even tho it is not confirm! but i feel like bursting into excitment! hahaha...lalala~~~
mayb i shld not be too happy...coz no one noe how u feel...=/ watever! i dun care~~~8P
p.s. benji got freak out so easily! hahahahahahahahaha :X
Monday, August 4, 2008 ( 2:23 AM )
submission for yog fdc and stamps are over! shiok~~~
i'm glad that this submission is over...haha!!! next up-pixco and aisa booklet! woohoo...
add oil shuyi(=
actually i prefer ppl calling me shuyi....but ppl prefer to call me sock
oh wells~~~
Sunday, August 3, 2008 ( 7:57 AM )
my hands hurt~~~~!!!!!!!!!! damn!
red marks...small red marks....
lalala i'm being bored here! i wan to scream out loud...scream out my feelings and stress!
not much stress but watever!
i wan to have my own studio! my own lights, background, etc.
then i can make my own photoshoot.
a room painted all white and a big mirror near the door. with one big wooden table for sketches and laptop and nice comfortable leather chair, black/white. i wan a huge blackboard so i can doodle watever i like..a noticeboard coz i love to stick notes. a big television no windows wooden floor nice lightings beautiful music. a do-not-disturb tag outside my door...
next room is a cafe. i brew my own coffee bake my own brownies. a few small tables with couch for ppl. cafe in the morning and a bar at night. different types of alcohol with shots cup..watever u call tt. perfect! oh and a big tv for movies (=
another room...mattress on the floor...not one..mayb the whole floor... i roll on them and i toss and turn. a small machines that produce many many many m&m-s. a tv again! mayb a hot water boiler...for cup noodles. transparent ceilings for stars...nice! mayb rainbow too...
last room...all my family and frens. tts all i need to say (= and many dogs tt dun poo or pee!
Saturday, August 2, 2008 ( 12:06 AM )
something more to share...
finally completed my yog fdc. but still there are some problems here and there. anw, i haven been writing in LJ and when i read all my frens' posts...oh gosh i missed out quite a lot! hahaha~~~
nisha is 18 now so does peeaxe(=
this morning sth bad happen to me.
i got bitten by charco)= on my hands....
i dun blame him becoz is my fault to touch him when he is sleeping. my hands still hurts but better.
if someone was to ask me, how often do u regret after making a decision?
i will say plenty!
all of us make mistakes and now i realised i just made one.
to talk to think to miss
although i noe is a mistake but i still continue. hahaha
mayb i'm someone who follow my heart most of the time. good or bad?
i'm trying real hard to walk out and ya i noe i'll be fine and good again(=
who noes wat will happen 10 yrs down the road!
my hair is real short but i'm not BUNG~~~~~ roarrrrrr
is nice in my point of view..hahahaha but i guess tt is the shortest i'll ever cut(=
izzen tt bad maaaaaaa...
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